Saturday, January 24, 2009

My future child?

Last night I had a dream that I had just given birth to a baby girl. She was beautiful! She had gorgeous, creamy skin, wavy hair, and big brown eyes. It made my heart melt. Then before I knew it she was a toddler and her hair was a wild mess of curls. I loved it!

Does this mean I am ready to be a mother? Somedays I feel I am ready, and yet there is always a feeling of sadness when I think of giving up the life that Ysmaille and I have. I love our ability to spontaneously decide what we want to do with our day when we wake up at 9:00 on a Saturday morning. Not to mention how busy we already are. This week has been such a stressful one for us. In preparation for our cruise next week we are trying to get everything in order. We have already spent well over six hours on homework and are only about a third of the way done. Today I had to spend over two hours in my classroom (on a Saturday!) trying to get everything organized for a sub. We have literally had no free time this week. What would we do if we had a child? How do mothers do it?

I want my beautiful little "dream" girl with curly hair, but I don't know if I'm ready to give up my freedom!

Thursday, January 22, 2009


I am taking a grad class on diversity. I never really thought much about adversity because I figured that I wasn't racist. I have friends from all over the world who are different colors than I am. I am even married to a man who is much darker than me. Obviously race isn't an issue for me, but what I am realizing is that I do hold some ugly prejudices in my heart. Diversity is so much more than race! How do I treat people who are different than me based on socio-economic status, weight, appearance, job title, age? It's food for thought.

Monday, January 19, 2009

After realizing that so many of my friends are using this particular site to keep in touch, I thought maybe I should find out what it is all about... I absolutely love facebook because it gives me short "snippets" of what each of my friends are doing, but I have to admit that I miss reading paragraphs. And so from Xanga, to MySpace, to Facebook, and now here I continue to post my journey online for the world to see.

"A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step." -- a Chinese proverb

My life has been a journey-- a journey that has taken me to many places, allowed me to meet many amazing people, and yet never forget who I am and where I come from.